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First things first. People accuse me of having to be my 'FREE DRIVER', and they feel that im treating it as an 'ENTITLEMENT'. To put things right, I have never treated anyone as a free driver. The lunch and dinner treats i give willingly without any complaints are worth MUCH MORE than a taxi trip to send me back to hall from home. Yet i have NEVER thought much about it. When he gets angry he complains that his family is complaining about him driving ME back and not driving THEM. 'Did I tie him down to sending me?' No. He is free to go whenever he wants. I ask him and he always says its ok. So now WHY the complaints?

Second point. People accuse ME of being a cause of their family quarrels when he cant seem to solve the issue on his own. He feels that he is neglecting his family because of ME. I spend my weekdays at hall, Saturdays giving tuition and Sundays coming back to hall. Time spent at home is almost close to 0. But yet I dont feel that I am neglecting MY FAMILY. Complaints from my family? None. So this is a mangement issue right? Stop pushing the blame to me. Its as if I am a jinx and burden to you and your family. This is NOT the first time that this COMMENT is made. How come I have never said that YOU are the cause of my family quarrels??

Third point. Some people claim that I am 'INTERRUPTING HIS FAMILY'. 'Why do I stay over in his house?' Because he likes it. I cant even rest well. 'What do I do when I get there?' Go into his room bcos of the dogs. Do i say anything? No. Many times I am there when I am invited. Do i want to be there? Sometimes I am so tired I rather stay at home to rest. Reasons for being there? Its not polite to NOT be there when you are invited, so I HAVE TO BE THERE. 'Why do I ask and share ideas about NIE schwork?' Because its always good to ask and share ideas while learning. If it is so much of an interruption I would gladly stop. There are many others I could ask and share. 'Why do I need help for hall?' Its for the best interests for everybody. If its so much of an interruption I would rather stay with a stranger. Despite all his thinking, why have I NOT told him that he was interrupting MY FAMILY??

Many interruptions and interferences and last min changes when I have made plans or when I am out with him. I feel so frustrated. I have set aside time, only to know that the plans are changed or he cannot commit his time for the short period of time that we are together, only to be faced with other distractions. How would you feel if I was doing that to YOU?? This again is NOT the first time. Its countless until I cannot remember, and I am sick and tired of feeling frustrated over it.

ALL these reasons are valid to prove that I have never been treasured. When times are good, I am being treated well, but when its bad, I am reminded of what a burden I am to him and his family. Why didnt it cross my mind that he was also a burden to me?? Its as if everyone is accomodating me. So why continue to make things difficult for everyone? If everyone can be made happier WITHOUT me being around then I would gladly step aside. You are free to be who you want. I have never tied you down. You never had to be my 'FREE DRIVER". You did everything WILLINGLY.

A day @Iluma

A day @Iluma
Well, it is a typical sunday and we have been heading to the same few places (Ang Mo Kio Hub, Bishan Junction 8 etc) so we decided to go for a change. My sweet heart suggested Iluma as she hardly explore there so we decided to head there for shopping.

Well, the first thing when we step in is that we felt very cold as the aircon is strong! The place seems quite big and the shops seem quite unique. There is a special escalator that leads you all the way up to the 4th storey. We find that there isn't much stores to shop. There is an arcade and a few restaurants to eat including Empire State (Monkey on top on building), a Japanese cosplay restaurant, a dessert store (cheeky), noodle house and Xin Cafe. We head to the noodle house at first, but it seems normal to us. We decided to try Xin cafe since my dear wants to try.

Our first impression of xin cafe is that the ambience is very nice. We ordered 2 different fried rice (Samba and normal) and 2 cups of mango pomelo drink. The drink is simply tasty and highly recommended.

As for the fried rice, mine (normal) is a little tasteless or rather I can't taste much, but the prawns are fresh and delicious. My dear has a better fried rice (Samba) which has the spice and strong taste, so she likes it a lot. I have to admit hers taste much better. Another good thing is that they are now offering 20% promo until end of sept this year so you all can try bringing your friends to try.

At first we wanted to go and try the dessert store, but we did not as we are so full. We walked up to the highest floor to have a look at the scenery, but the wind is so strong and it is so cold! Hence we decided to head back down to keep ourself warm. Initially, we wanted to watch a movie but there wasn't any good shows for us to watch. The good shows were either watched before or it will release another few weeks later. Anyway, we haven't watch in film garde before. May be next time we can try watching there. We hang around a little while before we head home. The day was short, but we certainly enjoyed ourselves. Thats all for now!

I passed!

Oh no..this blog is dead. I shall blog about my personal stuff then. I finally passed my driving yesterday! That ends a year of somehow intensive driving lessons. Though yesterday i didn't drive as well as my third attempt, in which my only major mistake was mounting the kerb at S course, i am so thankful that i passed! The TP was quite nice..A few cyclists at the side road could almost cause my failure but he decided to just give me 8 points for it. But somehow i felt that he had in mind to pass me right after completing the circuit items, cos he changed the test route and i didn't do any U turn and did only 1 right turn.

When we went back to the TP room, he started to explain to me my mistakes. I couldn't help but interrupt him and asked him whether i passed. He started to say in a jokingly manner that he wanted me to listen to my mistakes first. Then it was non stop about the cyclist until i thought i had failed again. When i looked at page 1 of the result slip i already saw close to 14 demerit points and there was still another page he did not flip over. My heart really sank at that point of time. But at the end he said u passed..And stop doing all those wide turns and beware of all road hazards. Then he said jokingly that i was born in year 1987 but still haven't passed when people born in year 1990 had already passed their driving!

Really wanna thank all the people who supported me all this while..and for all that had prayed hard for me and most of all God that allowed this to happen. Through all the failures i learnt that safety is the most important issue in driving and through the many lessons that i took, i became more confident in handling different road conditions with the right technique. Most of all i think God was telling me to be patient..to learn to drive well and not just focus on passing the test :)

Aftermath of ESE

Overall, the experience of ESE has been an enjoyable and memorable one. Though there were some setbacks faced mainly in classroom management, the overall experience was great. Learnt alot and got a feel of what the job is like. Towards the end of ESE, we couldn't really bear to leave the school and on the last day we stayed till very late, chatting with mentors and other teachers.

Orientation in NIE was cancelled due to H1N1..and mon to wed i was at a chalet. Though it was fun, I kept thinking about the school and my memorable times there. Feel like going back to teach there permanantly, but my chances are low. Hai..i really miss my times there!

The life of teaching

These few days have been so super tiring..Waking up at 5.40am, and getting ready for school. Initially i thought it was only observation of classes, but due to H1N1, teachers who went to those countries affected had to take Leave of Absence. As a result, there was shortage of teachers and i had to do relief for POA and bio up to yesterday, but no teaching was required on my part. It was really quite an experience handling those normal classes. At times, i was emotionally affected by what the students did to me. At times, i felt happy that i could manage the class and the students were well behaved and greeted me as i walked around the school. The sec 1 students were really cute.

Yesterday i started my observation for my math classes..Two days before i was told to design a math game on angles for a normal tech class..Took great pains to come up with questions for the game. When i stepped into class, i was quite shocked by how daring the students were and how they talked back..After going through a summary of the concepts by the teacher, i started to conduct the game. Throughout the game, i was shouting at them bcos they were so hard to control..and we even had to use a mike sometimes. It was really quite an experience.

After school, although its only 2pm..i already feel super tired out..I can just doze off after i get home..and if i didn't set my alarm..i think i will only wake up the next morning.. Thats how tiring it is..

New stuff in my room

I recently got a 26 inch LCD Samsung Monitor and new Altec Lansing speakers together with my Wii that i got as my birthday present. Haha..im definitely not insane about all this technology stuff but through this post i want to take the oppurtunity to thank Kelvin for helping me with all his advice and setting everything up. It wasn't easy and i definitely wouldn't have been able to do it by myself!

(Wii is absent from the picture, cos i lent it to my friend. Yoshi is waiting for its return! Lol..The silver mio box allows me to watch mio TV and normal TV channels)

(subwoofer-> an extension of the 2 speakers above for better sound quality)

Haha, this is my graduation present for myself.. I feel that this is the hardest time i've ever worked in order to rush my modules to graduate on time and resume duty in NIE in June. With special sem to clear my last core module, i couldn't go for a grad trip in May or June. No matter what has happened, I'm really glad how everything has turned out. Just hoping that the career i have chosen to take suits me and i will be able to adapt to hall life when i'm a trainee. I feel like i'm moving to another phase of my life~ lol..

Pri Sch gathering!

Last week i went for my pri sch gathering with Kelvin. Was supposed to do some painting as volunteer work in the morning till evening but i came down with stomach flu the day before. Instead of assembling at Kovan at 830 for the volunteer work, i went to the clinic and was the first patient to arrive that day. After that, i went home to rest and picked Sally up at 7+pm. After that, we made our way to our pri sch teacher's house(Mrs Tan) at a condo in East Coast.

Had a great time there..although we were late and didnt spend much time there. Haha finally saw Mrs Tan's kids as well. They were really cute. Joel is already 9 while Jannalyn is 6 years old. The last time i saw them, Joel was only 5 and Jannalyn was only 2 years old. Haha but somehow had more impression of Joel, cos we gathered at Mrs Tan's house when he was born and when they moved to their new house at Serangoon North when Joel was around 1 years old.

We attempted to take a class photo, with our standing postion as similar as possible to the class photo we took in pri 6. It was really humourous and we got quite excited. In the 2nd photo, Mrs Tan is 'strangling' Ritchie bcos during our candid photo in pri 6, Ritchie was being 'strangled' by Mrs Tan and some of us and he raised his hand and blocked Mrs Tan's face!!

Then we had a 'yum seh' ceremony and thanked the organisers and Mrs Tan for hosting us.

After that, we celebrated Mrs Tan's birthday for her. Sandra and Lynn baked a chocolate cake for her. Haha it tasted good!

Lol Kelvin was very nice that day and helped us take alot of photos. He also chatted with my other classmates. Mrs Tan and classmates thought that he was very helpful. Lol..My classmate even reminded me to tag him in the photos! I really want to thank him for fetching me and my friends there and back, joining us and helping out during the class gathering. He has added five stars in my heart!