Reaching the end~ Can finally see light at the end of the tunnel~

Took my 2nd last final year exam today..Still ok. But somehow didn't manage to churn up the length for the first question which was a 50 mark essay. Sat there in the last 10 mins with mental block, and somehow i didn't feel nervous at all. Just felt that my brain had shut down. Guess i was too tired to think. Ended off with just one single sentence 'urban planning is needed for economic growth but the government has to intervene as well'. Wanted to write more but my hand was no longer responsive to the signals sent out by my brain. Lol.

Yesterday's biomolecules was the worst paper i took this sem. Just by looking at the paper i had already lost half of the marks bcos i didnt focus on memorising those stuff. Somehow i was caught off guard, and felt kind of cheated. Bcos what came out in some of the questions were those not explained in detail by the lecturer and i thought was just sufficient to understand and glance through. All the stuff which i thought was important and focused on did not come out much at all.

Haiz i have a bad bad habit ever since i came to NUS. I cannot sleep well before major exams. I go to bed early, ensuring i have more than 6 hours of sleep, but i somehow i toss and turn about in bed, and the next day i just feel so tired. Ironically, during normal school days i would treasure every moment to rest and sleep. I will doze off in less than 15mins. Is it a psychological barrier towards exams? It only started from year 2. In year 1 of uni i was too slack to bother so much.

I just realised that it is hard to ignore and feel angry over loved ones. Although i feel angry and upset sometimes, i just cant bear to show the other person how angry or upset i am. After i show that im angry or upset i regret my actions of being too harsh. Is this a stong feeling of love?